“How beautiful and rare it is to be able to tell by nothing more than the way someone looks at you that they only want the best for you, no matter the cost. No matter the circumstances. And that they would do anything in their power to see you happy. It’s selflessness in its purest form and it’s so hard to find. If you meet a person like this, don’t push them away. Let them stay.”
“I don’t know if there’s a word for it, but the thing I‘m aching for the most at the moment is change. I‘m craving it with every fibre of my body. I want to throw the windows wide open and breathe in the spring air that is not quite there yet. I want to redecorate the house, throw my old stuff out and buy new clothes, new plants, new everything. I want to cut my hair short, or curl it, or straighten it - I just want to wear it different than before. I want to dress more boldly and do things that scare me. I want to break out of my comfort zone and learn to be completely and devastatingly honest about things that hurt me and things I can’t face yet. I want everything to go back to the way it was before and yet I want it all to be different. I want to be different. There‘s a German word that basically translates to being homesick for a place you’ve never been. It’s called Fernweh. I wish there was a word to describe what I‘m feeling right now, because I think I might be homesick for a version of myself I haven’t met yet. For a version of myself I can’t meet at the moment, because every day seems so much like a repetition of the day before and I can’t see the end of the route we’re on. Right now, I can only hope for the slow sort of growth. The silent one. And maybe at the end of these difficult times, I’ll look back at who I was before and notice that I’m no longer the same.”
“I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest changed in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.”
growing up reading fantasy books was such a bust cause your whole life you’re left wanting more from life and like there’s something missing and you’re just waiting for that missing part to begin but it’s never gonna come
